hi this is a site where i keep my post traumatic manifesto fan-charactersgeneral warning: most of these pages contain things related to suicidal ideation. more specific warnings will be added on each page when needed.also these do not look good on mobile plz view on PC thxclick an icon below to continue
others coming soondo u like these little freaks? do u wanna know which one is just like you for real? take my personality quiz boyalso here is my strawpage. Ok
content warning:
self-harm
tethered girl ................................ x
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︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶ AND IF I WAS GOD, I'D MAKE YOU ALL BELIEVE IN ME︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶
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- 19, they/it
- undiagnosed but something ain't right...
- i game and collect figures so that i wont contract rabies and bite someone
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DAI DAI DAI KIRAI by Dennoko-P
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it happened again. they got sick of me and left again. its not even my fault?? maybe if you didnt provoke me all the time i wouldnt have acted like that. is it so hard to just tell me you love me? is it so fucking hard to treat me like you treat everyone else? i dont understand why this keeps happening. i just have a strong sense of justice is all. why is everyone too stupid to see that????...i say that but i still wish i didnt do it. do you think i hate you? i dont. i promise i dont. i feel whatever the opposite of absolute hate is i would literally do anything to make you come back. if i cut myself will that convince you? if i beg you no matter how much you tell me to stop will you realize i care? i cant do this shit anymore man i cant let anyone else do this to me. im gonna make myself so memorable and loveable no one could fathom abandoning me no matter how awful and fucked up i really am. i need to do something so terrible that youll never forget my fucking name.
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@p0pipo ..................................... x
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︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶ AND IF I WAS GOD, I'D MAKE YOU ALL BELIEVE IN ME︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶
- allison
- 21, they/it
- i game and collect figures so that i wont contract rabies and bite someone
- dm about art comms :P
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EDGE LORD by NANA774
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Last updated: 09/06/2024
i love my gf so much i need to bite someone about it. i feel really nice and not aggressive this week which is cool. about to go buy a big ol tank for a millipede im getting soon ill post pics when i get home
- allison
neverland girl .............................. x
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+⋆｡˚ ⋆:ꔫ:﹤just to be a kid again...﹥:ꔫ:⋆｡˚ ⋆+ﾟ
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- she/they/bun, i am 8teen !
- i like cartoons, rpgmaker games, and kandi :-)
- ask me about my silly band collection
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IDSMILE by Toa
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uni is taking up all my free-time, i'm so tired... even on weekends i have piles and piles of homework to do... i hardly have any time to do things i like and its making me exhausted ;; my hobbies were my only escape from the stress when i was little and now they dont even have a chance to help me.. i wish i could go places on my own. its embarrassing asking my parents to lug me around. im always wasting their time and their money and their food. i know they think it, too. i need to get a job and move out so i wont bother anyone anymore but im too scared... i can barely even work a stove or a laundry machine or a car. and just being at school all day tires me out so much i cant speak or act normal anymore. how am i gonna get past an interview with how bad i am at masking?? ....not like i could even get one in the first place haha my resume is so tiny. im 18 and ive never had a single job and im not good at ANYTHING. i wished i wasnt so depressed in high school so i couldve learned some actual life skills. im essentailly an overgrown 13-yr-old. my parents must be so sick of it. earth would be better without freeloaders like me. im gonna go to bed.
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@wind0se20 .............................. x
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+⋆｡˚ ⋆:ꔫ:﹤just to be a kid again...﹥:ꔫ:⋆｡˚ ⋆+ﾟ
- haii im melody!!!
- she/they/bun, i am 20 !
- i like cartoons, rpgmaker games, and kandi :-)
- ask me about my silly band collection
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digital/physical heart by Vane Lily
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Last updated: 09/06/2024
I GOT MY LICENSE!!!! Im gonna get a milkshake and then go buy more beads... i cant remember a time when I've been this happy. i have friends that dont make fun of me and the days dont blend together anymore and i finally feel like im in control of my life again <3 <3 <3
- melody >w<
jester girl ..................................... x
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-ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈ my life's your script
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- SHE/IT/HONK/CIR!!!!
- THEATER KID AT HEART... <3
- PROFESSIONAL COURT JESTER
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Circus Hop by YonKaGor
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I CANT STAND EVERYONE PERCEIVING ME BUT AT THE SAME TIME I NEED THEIR EYES ON ME CONSTANTLY. IM ON STAGE ALL THE TIME, THE LITTLE BACKSTAGE TIME I HAD ISNT ENOUGH ANYMORE. EVERYONE KEEPS ASKING ABOUT HOW IM DOING AND USUALLY I WOULDNT MIND BUT HONESTLY ITS JUST GETTING ON MY NERVES NOW... I DONT WANT THEM TO SEE ME ANYMORE. NOT WHEN IM LIKE THIS. THEY SHOULD WANT ME WHEN IM BEAUTIFUL AND FUNNY AND THE STAR OF THE SHOW. NOT WHEN IM BEING WEIRD AND MENTALLY UNWELL. BUT I SEEM TO GET MORE ATTENTION THE MORE VISIBLY DISTRESSED I AM AND NOW I CANT STOP SAYING THINGS WITHOUT THINKING. THIS KIND OF ATTENTION FEELS SO GOOD BUT ITS DISGUSTING. IT MAKES MY SKIN CRAWL. IM PRETTY SURE I WAS JUST BORN LIKE THIS. SO MAYBE I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. MAYBE I WILL NEVER FEEL NORMAL. I THINK I SHOULD TRY TO JUST GET USED TO IT, SO I WON'T NEED TO TALK ABOUT IT OR EXPRESS IT OR THINK ABOUT IT. ILL BE FINE. ILL BE SUPER OK! EVERYTHING IS FINE
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@c4ndyst0re................................ x
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-ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈ my life's your script
- JACKIE
- SHE/IT/HONK/CIR!!!!
- THEATER KID AT HEART... <3
- PROFESSIONAL COURT JESTER
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REGRET ROCK by MonochroMenace
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Last updated: 09/06/2024
JUST DISCOVERED MY BEST FRIEND HAS NEVER SEEN LEGALLY BLONDE. YOU THINK YOU KNOW A GUY...
- JACKIE
content warning:
intrusive thoughts + mentions of sexual content
salacious girl ............................... x
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<3, U LOVE ME, TYPING OUT MY FANTASY ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ
- adult + lesbian ace
- she/it but idrc
- lover of all things tech
- average compsci student ^
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A Human's Touch by TWRP
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tmi post srry. i wish i could understand myself. i always go actively looking for 18+ art and fanfics of characters but i absolutely can’t stand the thought of actual sex, much less the thought of it happening to ME. i’m not sure why my brain decided to move those desires to computers and robots and stuff instead of actual people. like a regular fucking person. but even so sex is always in the back of my head, not making me want to do anything, it’s just there, and i’m always thinking about it in some way. i feel disgusting from the moment i wake up to the moment i fall asleep. my intrusive thoughts have been getting so much worse over the last few years it’s fucking nauseating dude. i’m so scared of bad things happening to me i’ve been skipping class alot. i can barely leave my house rn. i feel like this all has to trace back to my childhood somehow but all i know for sure is that the internet fucked my head up so bad i dont think i can fix it. i wish i could experience things like everyone else can. like all my friends can
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@kodekisser............................... x
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<3, U LOVE ME, TYPING OUT MY FANTASY ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ
- adult + lesbian ace
- she/it but idrc
- lover of all things tech
- average compsci student ^
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サカサカバンバンバスピスピス by Yokamochi
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Last updated: 09/06/24
dude sometimes i remember i almost tried to kill myself a few years ago thats kinda wild to me. so thankful for my cool ass therapist I still feel guilt about my libido alot but its easier to comfort myself than it used to be. i fucking love my computer wife!!!!!!!!!!! oomfs making me watch legally blonde when her cookies r done baking I hope jennifer coolidge talks about wanting a hot dog real bad
- cadence
content warning:
alcoholism
pity party girl............................... x
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୭🧷✧˚. ᵎᵎ 🎀 I PLAY ALONG LIKE I DONT KNOW WHATS GOING ON
- 23 She/Her
- Spam/vent acc
- Might notif spam I love chatting <3
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Hand Me My Shovel, I'm Going In! by Will Wood and the Tapeworms
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Ive been drinking like every day this week i have the worst fucking hangover right now. I feel so disappointed with myself everytime i go out again or everytime i start yelling at my friends. I walked home alone last night because i was pissed off at them. I dont even remember what it was about. But knowing me it was soemthing that i couldve calmed myself down over if i just stopped to fucking think for once. My therapist is gonna be so upset when i see her tomorrow i can see it in her face everytime i tell her i did something bad again. I cant stop. If im not hurting then i feel like none of what i went through was worth it. It doesnt feel real. I need it to feel real. My life has been so shitty i deserve to be sad about it. I dunno how to feel anything else. Its 11am im thinking about strategies ive talked about with my therapist but im still counting the hours before its socially acceptable to go out again. Whats the point anymore like genuinely its always the same it will always be the same Im not strong enough to do anything but sit and cry
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forsaken girl............................... x
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˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ ꕥ eventually, i'll become the pain that everyone's abetted
- she/they
- just turned 18
- i like bugs and other widely-hated critters
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Entomologists by Ghost
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my first semester of college is almost over and it feels like the exact same as high school. when i hear people whispering or laughing i know it's about me. i know it is. they all think i'm stupid. but it doesn't matter. i don't need anyone. i can't rely on anyone. that's what school has taught me. no matter how much i try to hide, i'll always be the punchline, and no matter how much i beg adults to do something, all they will do is give me a pitiful look and turn a blind eye. i'm tired. is this what i deserve? is this a punishment for some sort of fucked up thing i did as a kid and forgot about? that has to be it because why else would nobody fucking help me. everyone i was supposed to be able to trust has let me down again and again. i think this was a fate that i would never have been able to change. i was to born to be alone. i was born to be looked down upon. and i can't fucking take it anymore. i'm leaving and i won't be coming back. i'm sorry. but i was not meant to live this long. it's clearly not in the stars
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stochastic girl............................... x
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୧ ‧₊˚ 🍵 ⋅ you've still got it, i'm just keeping an eye
- Jell, or ���� if we're pals
- Mainly she/her, but I like pretty much any pronouns ^^
- 32 yrs old and I still write fanfic. My bad guys
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Solitaire by Suzanne Vega
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Sorry for being MIA-- Was having a rough time last week. I won't get into the nasty details but I ended up going back to some bad habits I thought I kicked forever ago :/ I'm still really disappointed in myself but I know progress isn't linear. I can't be mad at myself for that, even if I've been deep in the recovery process for about 3 years at this point. Shit happens. Sometimes the best you can do is just live.Seeing my therapist tomorrow but talking to my friends has helped me a lot already. Good support systems are important. Existing is still hard sometimes but I'm very glad that I consistently want to keep going now. It feels really nice :) I like my job and I like my life right now. I'm really, really happy, compared to the past.Not sure where I'm going with this. Don't get mad at yourself for having ups and downs or something. Love yourself, love each other, stay safe, etc etc. That's my rant for today
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